Aim Blindly, Land Boldly
How One Question Sparked a Galaxy of Posibilites
Taking the First Shot, Unknowingly
Creation is a lot like life—messy, unpredictable, and full of moments that don’t make sense until they finally do.
This year, my journey of creation became a mirror for my inner transformation—a process of dismantling what wasn’t working, leaning into the unknown, and taking uncertain steps toward something meaningful.
Today, I’m beyond excited to share the culmination of that journey:
Drumroll, please...
Introducing the first installment of Gateway Galaxy: "Design Your Inner Star"—a creative experiment inspired by a year of healing, loss, creativity, and rediscovering joy.
And the timing couldn’t be more cosmic. Announcing this project under tonight’s New Moon in Sagittarius feels like the perfect alignment.
Chef’s kiss.
Adjusting My Target, Repeatedly
This new moon cycle is about taking aim, even when the target isn’t clear. It’s about planting seeds for the future, trusting the process, and letting curiosity lead the way.
For me, this New Moon represents a full-circle moment. It’s surreal to reflect on how the idea of Gateway Galaxy became my companion through this inner transformation. In its creation, it has taken on many different shapes, each one mirroring my own journey.
What excites me most is that this was the first idea I felt deeply connected to from the jump. Even when the vision was undefined and felt unreachable, something in me knew it mattered. I couldn’t let it go, and so I kept going.
Before we dive into what Gateway Galaxy is, let me take you on the journey that brought me here—a journey that began in January and shaped me, month by month, into the person writing this today.
Shooting My Shot: Playing Cupid with My Life’s WorkThis is the story of how 2024 became the year I learned to take the first shot, unknowingly.January: Left on Read by the Universe
It all started back in January—a single moment I captured in my first-ever Substack post.
I was back home, feeling utterly lost after what felt like a colossal failure. My career had stalled. My plans had unraveled. Everything I thought I was building suddenly lay in ruins.
But it wasn’t just professional—it felt deeply personal. The universe seemed to ask, “Are you sure this is who you are?”
That post became my declaration of uncertainty—a vulnerable reflection of me grappling with purpose, identity, and direction.
I didn’t know it at the time, but it was the first step on a yearlong journey of stripping away everything I thought I was to uncover who I truly am.
April: Ghosted My Own Potential
By April, the internal chaos I’d been navigating had spilled out into my external world.
Relationships, work, and finances were unraveling at once, leaving me overwhelmed by a crushing sense of powerlessness. Life didn’t just feel messy—it felt like I was losing control of everything I’d worked so hard to hold together.
It was during this time that I discovered creativity as a way to process my emotions. Journaling, mood boarding, and sketching weren’t about creating something “good”—they were about survival. Each act of creation was a way to confront the chaos and try to make sense of what I was feeling.
Looking back, I’m struck by how many drafts I wrote for Substack in April. Every day, I poured my thoughts into words, trying to untangle the storm in my head. And yet, not a single one was published. It’s almost funny now—how I documented everything I was feeling but was too afraid to share it.
But despite my fear, April marked an important shift. For the first time, I committed to integrating creativity into my daily life. And even though it didn’t fix everything, it gave me something I desperately needed: a sense of agency.
That commitment planted a seed—a seed that, despite exhaustion and loneliness, would later grow into the idea for the Creative Accountability Group.
July: Sliding into Chaos’s DMs
By July, the storm hadn’t let up. If anything, it felt like the hardest month of the year.
Personal struggles, medical concerns, and professional setbacks hit me all at once. My loneliness was at an all-time high. And yet, I clung to creativity like a lifeline.
Journaling became a ritual. Mood boarding felt like a small act of rebellion against the chaos. Even DJing—a passion I hadn’t touched in years—became a way to remind myself, “I’m still here.”
It was during this time that the idea for the Creative Accountability Group took real form.
It began with a random WhatsApp invitation to a writing group that I assumed was a scam (as one does these days). But then, someone DM’d me on Instagram, asking if I was planning to start a creative accountability group. To this day, I don’t remember ever mentioning the idea publicly (lowkey, my memory is questionable), but that message felt like a nudge from the universe.
Even in the darkest moments of July, the act of creating every day—and the possibility of this group—kept me going.
August: Shooting My Shot (and Missing?)
By August, the Creative Accountability Group had officially launched.
If I’m honest, it felt like a failure. Participation was low, progress felt slow, and I couldn’t shake the feeling that my efforts were a lost cause.
But something unexpected happened: for the first time in months, I felt seen.
The group reminded me of why I loved creating in the first place. Even though it didn’t lead to immediate success, it gave me a glimpse of what could be possible.
Still, August was a turbulent month. Clients disappeared, projects fell through, and I started to wonder if I was chasing something that didn’t want to be caught. It was a humbling, messy time, but it forced me to confront what I truly wanted.
September: Rebounding with Creativity
September was the month everything changed.
After a chaotic summer, I made a choice: recommit to figuring it all out.
This wasn’t a grand epiphany or a sudden burst of clarity. It felt more like being sent to detention by the universe—forced to sit with everything that wasn’t working and decide what I was going to do about it.
Emotionally, I was drained. Creatively, I felt empty. Financially, I was barely holding on. But I made the decision to keep going.
I leaned into creativity not as a solution but as a practice. I approached it with curiosity and hope, trusting that the process itself could lead me somewhere meaningful.
From September to November: Swiping Right on Myself
From September to November, everything began to shift. Each month brought new questions, new creative practices, and new insights that slowly formed the foundation of Gateway Galaxy.
September: Rekindling the Spark
The Problem: Feeling stuck and uninspired.
What I Learned: Small creative acts can reignite joy.
The Module: Reconnect with joy, map where you are, and imagine where you want to go.
October: Mapping the Hero’s Journey
The Problem: Life felt overwhelming and messy.
What I Learned: Challenges are stepping stones.
The Module: Rewrite your story and embrace transformation.
November: Designing Your Inner Star
The Problem: Sustaining dreams and keeping the flame alive.
What I Learned: Systems matter.
The Module: Build systems to help you shine as the star of your own life.
An Invitation to Join Me
Gateway Galaxy is ready for its first test flight, and I’m inviting you to join the pilot launch.
What to Expect:
Low Commitment: Light but impactful exercises.
Creative Tools: Mood boards, storytelling prompts, and playful activities.
Real Feedback: Help shape the future of this project.
DM here or my IG page if interested! More details to come later as well
all this to say.
This year taught me that life doesn’t come with a perfect map.
Sometimes, you have to take the first shot without knowing where it will land.
But when we take aim, when we share our journeys—our joys, struggles, and dreams—we discover how deeply connected we truly are.
Here’s to taking aim.
Here’s to creating something extraordinary.
And here’s to letting our inner stars guide the way. 🌟
Let’s explore the galaxy together.
‘til next time,
2mannythoughts
SNEAK PEEK OF THE FIRST INSTALLMENT
Some visuals of your guides on this experimental journey!
Note of Encouragement
When we share our inner worlds—our joys, struggles, and dreams—we realize how much we actually have in common.
We see that the fears someone else is overcoming are ones we’ve carried too. Their light? It reflects our own.
In that shared connection, something magical happens: meaning, understanding, and faith are restored—not just in ourselves, but in the collective dream of something bigger and better.
Oh, and just so you know: The world isn’t ready for what’s coming. This version of me is shining brighter than ever.
And she’s ready for her world takeover to start now. 🌟