My Ambition Is Haunting Me

Edition 001 – Magnetic Momentum Meets Meaning (Venus Sextile Juipter)

Jun 04, 2025

🎙️ Devotion Diaries: Frequency Reports

A new series where energy meets strategy — and your ambition finally lands somewhere that feels like home.

🔊 What You’re Tuning Into

Welcome to the first edition of Devotion Diaries: Frequency Reports — the rhythmic, real-time companion to my main series Devotion Diaries.

If Devotion Diaries is where I reflect, recalibrate, and reclaim my creative voice...

Frequency Reports is where I forecast, flow, and fire up the strategy behind it.

Think of it like my energetic production notes — where I show you how I'm syncing the astrology with how I build, earn, and express — so you can do the same in your own rhythm.

This first report is directly tied to Devotion Diaries 038 — where I started to ask deeper questions about what “coming home to myself” really means.

This is the spark that set it all in motion.

🎬 Season Premiere: Venus Sextile Jupiter

This alignment is your official Season 1, Episode 1.

💖 Venus in Aries brings boldness to what you value.
⚡ Jupiter in Gemini expands how you think and communicate.

And this sweet sextile? It’s a cosmic green light.

A flow state waiting to be moved into.

Setting the tone for:

The kind of money you want to make (with peace, not pressure)
The kind of home you want to build within (mentally + emotionally)
The kind of creative life you’re ready to live out loud

It’s the start of ambition with alignment. Desire with direction.
Structure that’s sexy. Strategy that’s sacred.

And this series — Frequency Reports — will track those pulses in real time.

Let’s get into the first one:

💫 Magnetic Momentum Meets Meaning – your Venus x Jupiter flow, decoded.

How to Read & Use This Forecast Report

Think of this as your cosmic conditions report meets creative co-working session.

You don’t need to know astrology — just how to tune in.

This is here to help you:

Navigate your energy (not override it)
Align your actions with today’s vibe
Catch subtle cues from your body and inner voice
Reframe the stories you’re telling yourself

Treat this like your spiritual weather app: skim it in the morning, come back in the afternoon, or revisit when something feels “off.”

The tools are here when you need a reset or a reminder.

Let’s dive in.

🪐 Today’s Transit:

💖 Venus in Aries (X) + (Sextile) + ⚡ Jupiter in Gemini (Y)

Transit Result: Magnetic Momentum Meets Meaning

Transit Breakdown

Let’s decode this astrology into something you can actually live:

X: 💖 Venus in Aries (desire that initiates, self-trust, unapologetic value

Y: ⚡ Jupiter in Gemini (mental expansion, flexibility, curiosity)

Signature: 🔗 Sextile an easy-flowing connection that opens doors if you walk through them

Overall Vibe: ✨ Courage + Expansion = Abundant Initiation

This is bold beauty meets intellectual freedom.
This is confidence with curiosity.

This is your cosmic permission slip to start before you’re ready — not recklessly, but intuitively.

If it excites your body and stretches your mind?

That’s the path.

That’s the yes.

🔊 Daily Spark

Cue to check the cosmic weather

Today’s Inspiration: “My ambition is haunting me…”

Brought to You by: Kate Citron (False Start) — full post here

That line — straight from my friend Kate Citron’s Substack (False Start) — was the first ping I got this morning (go read and subscribe, she’s brilliant and hilarious).

We used to work together at Keeps, and she was the ultimate pulse-check. The person who could look at me across the room (or across Slack) and know I was one push notification away from losing it.

Truly kept me grounded — or at least, socially acceptable.

And this post? It hit in four places at once:

🪞 That feeling of snapping off part of your identity like a Lego piece
😔 The quiet ache of burnout that creeps in after you get the title
💭 The grief of building a career off other people’s highlight reels
🔁 The disorienting spiral of ambition with nowhere clear to land

It hit because I’ve been there. Some days, I am there.

And the only thing that brings me back to myself is asking: What’s real right now? What’s honest? What feels like home?

So I checked the astro — and of course, the skies were serving clarity:

Venus in Aries sextile Jupiter in Gemini.
🔥 + 🧠 = directional spark.
Desire, meet meaning.

That’s the cosmic cocktail I’m working with — and now I want to walk you through how I stirred that into my day.

Now, let’s walk through how to set our days to address ambition being too high, bc i am feeling like this rn

(see meme-board below for more)

Hopefully the cosmos can do their big thing but let’s see how that’s applied to you and how I am planning to apply it:

🧭 Spark into A Flame

How to Apply & Integrate the Today’s Cosmic Forecast

If you’re feeling like your ambition is peaking but directionless — or if you’re questioning what you’re working toward at all — this one’s for you.

I want to walk you through how I’m working with this transit, not just watching it.

Here’s how this celestial combo hits my real life:

Venus in Aries (Earning on My Terms)

Forecast Focus: Your values want expression, not just ideas.

Venus in Aries isn’t about passive beauty — she’s activated beauty. She knows what she wants and isn’t afraid to move toward it (twinnnsssss)

A planetary combination that’s not about lounging in luxury but:

Claiming what you desire
Owning what you value
Moving toward what brings you alive.

And for me? Venus is moving through my 2nd house — the house of money, self-worth, and personal resources.:

What’s becoming clear is this:
👉 I’m no longer interested in money that costs me peace.
👉 I’m no longer building systems that drain me.
👉 I’m learning how to make money the same way I create meaning — intentionally, sustainably, and in integrity.

🧠 Try This: Next time you're working just to keep up, ask:

Does this task reflect what I value — or just what I’ve been trained to chase?

Jupiter in Gemini (Expanding My Inner Home)

Forecast Focus: Curiosity is your compass for comfort.

Jupiter in Gemini is all about mental agility — it wants you to stretch your perspective, stay curious, stay light.

In my 4th house (home, roots, emotional security), this is showing up as:

Updating what “safe” looks like in my nervous system
Rewriting what “stable” means — from rigid to flexible
Letting go of the idea that safety = stillness

Jupiter here is asking: “Can you make your mind a place where you feel at home?”

Because the more permission I give myself to explore new ideas of comfort — through movement, through journaling, through honest expression — the more at home I feel, wherever I am.

🧠 Try This: Next time you feel ungrounded, ask:

What thought, belief, or story would bring me closer to feeling at home in myself right now?

How I'm Bridging the Two

So while Venus is asking me:

“What’s worth my time, talent, and energy?”
Jupiter is expanding the real question:
“Can I build from a place that feels like home inside me first?”

This is how I’m reorienting:
→ How I earn
→ How I live
→ How I lead

And it’s showing up in everything — my systems, my content, my client calls, my morning tea ritual.

✍️ Devotion Quest of the Day

Theme: Coming home to yourself isn’t a moment — it’s a method.

What does “coming home to yourself” look like in real time?
And how does it reshape what you’re starting, continuing, or letting go of?

Here’s my bridge:
💖 Venus in Aries = I take bold steps toward beauty and worth
⚡ Jupiter in Gemini = I expand what “home” means to me, moment by moment

🪶 And the tool I use to cross that bridge? Words. Always.

Journaling. Voice notes. Reflections. Ritual.
Not just creative habits — these are stabilizers.

Each sentence builds the inner structure I can actually stand on.